Thursday, September 13, 2012

barefeet only


tic tac toe, live
from the diamond square
strewn with shards
reflecting each other
gouging the pavement
rivulets blurring the lines
between
a game and the game
crosses and noughts
equals and winners and losers
ringed by cold
sets of matching shoes
ringed by fire
sets of watching shoes
all knowing, all moves, all cuts,
are the same

Sunday, September 09, 2012

asking permission


Like all good-ish little Indian girls, I was raised by a severely well-meaning community to believe that I have no control over my life, and no right to do what I want, simply because, well, simply because.

If I put my faith in my elders and the Gods, I will become the noble best and fulfil everyones dream. I dont blame them, this teaching has been handed down for generations, and its strength is literally overpowering. By the time I realized this is a crock, I was already set, I was impressed when I was most impressionable, and nothing to be done without years of undoing, years I am not willing to give.

The worst of the traits I developed was asking permission, till date I cannot do a damn thing I want without asking the permission of a whole disinterested spectrum of people, pets and furniture.

So today, I have decided to create my own Yes-Man (Not God, thank you, here is my opinion of God). I will call him Richard the Great.

Dear Richard the Great,
I am about to embark on a long lonely journey today, ignoring my work, all my pressing chores and earth-bound commitments, ignoring all the people I love and who love me, and would love to spend more time with me, whom I would love to spend more time with.

It will be a difficult, pointless task with no reward, no foreseeable end, and no benefit to anyone but me. It is something im doing because I want to. What do you think?

And Richard The Great's response

Dear Madhuri, You own your life, you have carte blanche to do whatever the hell you want with it.