the day the revolution came

 

you were born once
in a womb to a mother
to a father a fine lineage
when you finally settled inside their skin
you were born again
the day the revolution came

you absorbed the world became
a radiant sunrise sponge
you lived like the power of three minute visions
breathed through a garden
then one day the revolution came

you were pollen and the wind
that flew it you were a horizon
and the earth that moved it
you were black diamond you were
the heat that forged it
until the day the revolution came

you were a seer unrefined upon infinity
a fate that needed no telling
you were a spirit of unknown unashamed miracles
you were freedom of the arms
and legs and smiles
until the day the revolution came

and then you wanted to return
back to before the conception of hate
but it was too late
but it is never too late
only the matter of the price to be paid

 

 

reverse gear

how does it get so late in here
am i at the end of the road
or its center
was it a moment or a year ago
i used to be the opinion
by the side of the road
the moral the mocking bird
now i am the darkened theme
at which opinions are thrown
i would say full circle were it true
if i thought it through
what is true

With pride

 

One of my favorite cousins, who goes also by Green Ibis and Liquid Prose won a battle with society and stereotypes and had her maiden art exhibition in Pune recently, and sold a dozen paintings already!

I am just so very proud of her, she gives other mainstream flunkies like me one more reason to work harder and never stop trying!!

Here is one painting of hers that will soon be mine :)




Child in a storm

Top ten till now favorite games

I found a new game this week, quite providentially for my near and dear, may I add :D ... prompted me to make this list. A good game is like a good book, its a rush playing it, as some fellow gamers already know. All the below are favorites, with a definitive inclination for strategy, there is no specific order here

1. Commandos - The first game I every played. Have played all versions except Strike Force, one of the best strategy games ever!

2. Age Of Empires - Another excellent strategy game, although Microsoft ruined it later with too much detail. My favorite was the Conquerors expansion, the Briton civilization in particular. Favorite units are paladins, longbowmen and monks. Short range attack, long range defense and healing, a recipe for victory :)

3. Quake III Arena - Nothing like good old quake 3 to destress, picked up the habit from my brother. My favorite weapon of choice is the rocket launcher. Here is a blog I wrote about it a long moon ago

4. Tomb Raider Chronicles - yeah I know Lara Croft is a sexist image, but I have long thought of her as an idol, ironic that she doesn't exist, although Jolie did a fine job in the movie. All the Tomb Raiders barring The Angel of Darkness are super, Chronicles is my favorite because of a level called Gallows Tree, which is my first experience of actual fear inside a 3D pc screen. There is an undead baby here that follows you around. utterly creepy. Close second is Tomb Raider Legend

5. Monkey Island - All the 4 sets, especially 3 and 4. Following the adventures of Guybrush Threepwood, mighty pirate. Adorable guy with a blond ponytail the most awesome adventures and a talking skull called Murray. The dialogue is brilliant! The soundtrack of this game in ancient midi is most beautiful and was my ringtone for a long time, check it out



6. Thief - Deadly Shadows - RPG cum strategy. Is the game i found now. The details are exquisite and the Hammerite religion of the Builder kinda grows on you, torture, pompous sayings and all :) .. The AI is a little slow but still. creeping around undetected is a total rush, loving it!

7. The Longest Journey - Another adventure game like Monkey Island, the puzzles aren't as difficult as MI, but the storyline is terrific, Stark and Arcadia torn by the divide, quite fantastic

8. Grim Fandango - Again adventure with a class storyline, of Death transporting humans to the Other World and his underpaid Mexican assistant Manny. I haven't yet finished this game, lost my will to live while solving one puzzle and later lost the CD in between many many reformats, will keep looking :( ...Also Lucas Arts rocks!

9. Hitman 2 - Nice balanced compromise between first person shooter and strategy. Eats GPUs though and makes for a little morning sickness

10. Prince of persia - the sands of time - I know its kind of a sissy game, "pyjama clad prince" ROTFL but hell, i'm a girl, WTF, don't judge me :(


Here is a link online I found for top 100 all time awesomest PC games -
The 101 best PC games ever
some of the games I picked are in here so it has to be at least fairly non-propagandistic :D

 

 

Ragged Venn Diagrams

circles of complete sight
inward unwavering focused
these centers of might
if you break into one
the center is first
with misdirected abuse
if only
that tells you
you are ready to join the ring
humiliation equals humility

a little alarming
the ages of pain
inflicted in a bare thought
to rule the lives of cowering young things
like rats in a time warp

a little amusing
how each one thinks
their circle superhadronic
their circle the light of life
when life was made of great empty spaces
a universe squared by Venn
long before the laughter died
and the dying began

Existential dilemna #23718

I read the newspaper today after such a long time, that I blush for any prospective interviewers, I cannot trot out banal perceptions of international happenings or express outrage over the electoral candidates, just don't have the energy these days.

I am alarmingly of the mood that I will either make a change or shut up, which considering I have no qualifications or responsibility of outlook to change anything, is a fairly dangerous stand to take. But rest assured, it will be shut up all right. Shut up, on the rare occasions I achieve it, becomes me beautifully.

What I am currently annoyed about is an extremely perspicuous article that stated that "Men prefer beautiful women to intelligent". Oh I am not arguing the claim, I have been at the receiving end more than once of that particular charming propensity that males have, among innumerable others. No this is not a male bashing seminar, maybe later, the other standard is "Women prefer rich men to young, good looking, intelligent, humorous, worthy, fill in the blank"

My specific anger is against my own birth star or genes or drop angle. Not only did it decree, no beauty, no feminity, no barbie doll figure, in fact a clear masculine drive, no domestic achievement, no gentleness, no hair, it also made me uncommonly intelligent so I couldn't simply walk up to a plastic surgeon and challenge him to a duel.

Oh yeah, im a proud mensa member, just squeaked in on an iq of 136 (> 130 makes it). I actually went to a meeting and was pleasantly surprised to see I was at least close to the center of attention, not too many women there. But a crowd comprised principally of adolescents from IIT who were thrilled there was free beer didn't work for me, so I bowed out. And being a misanthrope is a delightful triple bonus everywhere in life, as im finding out. They always spot fakes and then torture them with endless conversation

Being above ordinary intelligent means having no one to explain things to you in a language you will understand because all the superer intelligent folks already died or went mad or lie behind barriers of a thousand average people who won't let you pass without drawing blood. I don't get it, what are everyone so threatened by, are insecurities reaching a crescendo these days that we are threatened by everything on principle now?

Being intelligent is the most utterly useless commodity for a man, or a woman, unless it is hidden and applied amorally. It means, you lose interest first, you have low attention span, constant mood swings, constant pressure to live up to some ridiculous label, a complete disenchantment with people starting at a very young age, not one fucking illusion to cling on to, a complete lack of responsibility or morality, paranoia, crippling fear and incipient madness to look forward to. The poster girl for misfit. I was the one standing in the middle of a crowded music room saying "what's the point of this?" at the age of eight.

But its excellent for inducing cold feet in men, party conversation and random bragging, like this one right here.

If I had the patience to apply myself to utterly useless formulae i could have made my parents and the world proud. but, you guessed it, "what's the point of this?" so instead i am reading an article on "men like bimbos" and feeling frustrated that its true. there is no point, should there be?

india and pakistan

if i lived by your border
would you live by mine
if i crossed in once or twice
would you cross through mine
would you push me back
or smile
hold out a hand
then when i return to my side
shoot me from behind
or because i left
would you cry
would i

The White Tiger

I have been in deep depression all day today after reading this book. Deep enough that I understand why it got the Booker. It was brilliant, and savage. And brilliant.

The book lashes out like only the truth will. A mark of a good anything is always how deep it embeds itself into your unconscious, how long it lasts, how much it hurts, or heals.

Has it depicted India in the worst way possible, yes undoubtedly. Is it true, well, we all know the truth, we who live and die here, reality anyone?

The beautiful culture of servitude we all gently sweep under the carpet. The man sure did a number on my head. I was reminded of Kahlil Gibrans words

“I admire him who reveals his mind to me; I honor him who unveils his dreams. But why am I shy, and even a little ashamed before him who serves me?”

I am tired of pushing this book down the throat of everyone I know ad infinitum, so I decided on en masse.

I am a believer of focusing on the positive, but there are some things you cannot overlook, and if you can, then well, ain’t that just 5 star for you!

I wont make comparisons with other books, because it was a truth, not fiction. There was no technique visible, which means the technique was flawless. A truth told flawlessly. What more is there to talk about really?

The chicken coop is guarded from the inside. I will never forget this.

Read it, and if it doesn’t change the beautiful vision of our hope as measured in real estate prices, this vision of “India Ever Shining”, not a fucking thing can!

finally, a clue

an illusion of control
fell around a fluttering curtain
of a river broken loose of a rock
from a height into a hollow beach
regular words sprinkled around it
like dust filtering through a sieve
somewhere between sand and diamond
catching sunlight as they fell
but still
sharp stone and liquid deceived
if a shimmera is what i seek
what a million saw
is what i seek
was it the angle
was, i ask you